I have had OCD for most of my life, or at least, from what I can remember. My earliest memory was when I was 7 years old. I would not swim in a swimming pool for fear of shark attack, and evenif I got in, I would be drowned with anxiety (not literally drowned). Or being 8 and walking past a painting 'wrongly' in my house, and having to go back and forth for ages until it 'felt right'. Fast forward 20 years and being mentally tormented by thoughts and obsessions of harm. The harming of others, being literally bullied by my own brain, telling me how bad I am. And most recently having OCD attack my relationship with my amazing girlfriend. Making me feel isolated, anxious and scared.
I could talk to you for hours about the problems, pains and tears I've had over the years. But what good would that do you. Instead I want to share the remarkable progress I've made with ERP, ACT and CBT therapies in the last year. I want to tell you about the key things I've learned, and also started to develop on my path to recovery. The days get lighter, and you get stronger. With my blogging, videos and speaking I have one aim:
To act as a stepping stone in the path of people's recovery from OCD 1 million times
Or simply to reach one million people affected by OCD by January 21st 2017. Why then? Because that is just before I turn 30. I feel this will pull a lot of meaning from my suffering in the past as a result of OCD, and be a beautiful start to my thirties.
With all that laid out. I hope my writing, speaking and life inspires you to start, continue or push you along the path of recovery.